Heaving devotion but it's just no good....Taking it hard just like you knew I would....

May 28^th, 2010

I often miss people more than places.

At least that's the mantra I repeat to myself as I struggle out of my bunk bed in a half-hearted attempt.

Daylight streams in lazily through the window of this forlorn guesthouse room and I begin to wonder how I even got into this situation in the first place.

Living in Tokyo was always something that I had earnestly wanted to happen, but not in this fashion and certainly not in these circumstances. I barely have enough funds to secure a cheap bottle of red wine, let alone pay the monthly rent on this dilapidated shared room.

I start to come out of my stupor realizing what I do every time I awaken.

That very first thought that crushes me completely every single morning.

That she is never coming back.

Ever.

How did it come it to this?

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np: She & Him - "Sentimental Heart"