....even it means disappearing for a while somewhere worse

some say that great suffering produces extraordinary character. i have always found it easy to encourage others, but never myself....

so its no wonder i smile when even my smallest desires come true because it takes the loneliness out of just merely existing.

sometimes i touch my face just to see if i am there

i don't know where i am going or what i will do when i get there. but even just in this exact moment. its past 3am....

i am more alive to the tune of when i stepped out of the plane.

the next 4 weeks will be full of detestable people and petty minds, currency exchange and language merchants.


hopefully there will be more long nights like this where i can just die to the world and failure will never know my doorstep....